Saturday, June 28, 2008

Do what you want.
I do not,will not,should not mind.

Friday, June 27, 2008

My children will know where most major countries are, along with their flags.
Small airplanes scare the living fuck out of me. I'm used to big,big ones, their sights and sounds.This,not so much. Take-off se waisay bhi jaan jati hai.

On a lighter note, Philly is only 23 minutes away. And I found mom's ring in my purse, it made me cry for the times when she won't be here.I'll wear her jewelery all the time,then.

bells and gongs

I don't know why I feel so tongue-tied.
My thoughts are misguided and a little naive.
When he touched me, I felt like I was being skinned alive.Peeled,grated,sliced into star-shaped pieces.
Right foot is bigger than the left, and my scars won't go away.
I do feel bad.Why do I do it? Cuz I expect those who love me to understand.And get hurt in the process too. But you're right, I need a new strategy.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Zahra is a laid-back,red shoe wearing,on Button sitting,cold apple pie eating,walking endlessly in the sun,responsible,minus camera (dis tyme onli),adventure-seeking tourist woman.

back to the city now,hey lets go.

Friday, June 20, 2008

yours truly

I think we were meant
to hold rituals in mud
and throw watermelon seeds
To wipe bread crumbs
off each other's face
To wear hoods in
the wrong season.
I think you were always meant
to finish my leftovers
And I to untie your knots.

Monday, June 16, 2008

your secret's out now.

Be something worthwhile,goddamn it.
You throw me a bone,I give you my skeleton.
In my moments of weakness,I could tell you my truths.And you'd be shocked.
I'm so tired of living a paused life, picking at your feet for attention.
My body cries.
I am tired of you writing long and empty paragraphs.They mean almost nothing when we're not together.
I want your heart and you want my soul.
No time to slow down.Yakkay ba deegray.Fast,fast,fast,everything should move like a merry-go-round.
It is time for change,it is time for replacement, time to explore and time to chase rainbows.
Placebo effect.
Swimming in lakes with strangers.Orange sun drowning in the blue water.
When did you stop making me happy?
We are the same.
the pressure that comes with being well-liked.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

'But its ok, cuz I know you fell in love with me first'


Thursday, June 12, 2008

Do not generate curiosity
For there is much room to err
Up on the ladder, out of time to escape
Up on the ladder, we wait for your mistake
Up on the ladder, trying to crawl out the way
Up on the ladder, you're all the fucking same

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

come on.lets lie on a bed of nails pretending to be grass.
'that's a funny way of breathing....'
'you're a funny way of breathing'

hahahahh,i less than 3 people.

Friday, June 06, 2008

nothing like giving the booty a good workout.

Thursday, June 05, 2008

alter ego

spring awakening and playing with lights.

your party's over,its done,the end.

Work was slightly scary today. First the tornado (that I wasn't even aware of,by the way, I should always check the weather beforehand). Did save a woman's life,so that was ok. Then the pipe bursting out of the airplane's side.What.the Fuck. If that thing blew up, I'd have no where to hide. I'm sure some people would be ok with me dying, others not so much.

Went to Lace's to discuss...things. Best friend things. It was awesome with lightning and the rain, then orange chicken with steamed rice. Earlier, me and Saira talked about Atonement and how we both have the same favorite scenes, the Keira dress-picking and the end 10-minute stretch. She said she was very pleased I had noticed the no break part.

...I'm sure he yells at me because of me. There's no reason for him to yell otherwise...I just need to be yelled at from time to time.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

free love

we need each other because we have no one.
no,wait wait.
we need no one because we have each other.
(much better)

Monday, June 02, 2008

death by nailpolish

people are funny.
this whole esther situation is getting to be extremely funny.
anyhoo,nuff bout that.

lynnie+saira+saag+new bike+white eyeliner.
what an absolutely marvelous day!
took loads of pictures of the new place, can't wait for George to get there, hop about:).
what else?
wore my shirt inside out.
dreamed about Radiohead at Leicester Square.
ate like a mofo on fire, London really starved me.
planned out London,Germany and D.C.

kal ki kis ko khabar,janay jana
rok lo,aaj ki raat ko.