Monday, December 27, 2010

Dalia

When the doctor told us he was dying, we didn't talk about it afterwards. Ever.
I still nestled in his adolescent militarily muscular arms, laughing at his haircut, his uniform, his acne, and the fact that he was mine. I would play with his Rubik's cube, and clean his glasses. We would sit in the sun on the terrace, drinking hot tea for our hot heads. Love was made like it was the last day on Earth.

The only thing that bothered me (and I did not speak to him of this) was how it would stay. All of it, everything all the time. His thick-rimmed glasses, my memory of his skin shining in the sun, the Rubik's cube. I bit my lip, and he would ask me where in the world I was. I didn't have the heart to tell him, I'd rather stay here forever, then move ahead (because forever does not exist, you see).

I'd be falling. Face up, back down, mouth sewn shut. If he left, (which he would), that is how I would feel. I'd be falling till I hit the bottom and escape.

9 comments:

Tazeen said...

*Sigh*

Basnapoocho said...

You write well. Like really well. Probably when you have little of these distractions you'll write a book. And you know what if that book goes well, you can you know start a brand of clothes or something. Cause your blog title for some reason, reminds me of L.A.M.B. Love Angel Music Baby that Gwen Stefani label. Anyway you can name your brand RIALC Random Indie Artistic Love Child. That will be a weird name but thats how things are these days. And then i am gonna show up and sue for stealing this idea and probably i will lose. And i am so poor you have no idea, so long story short could you like spare me some royalty rights of your brand. Anyway this is the probably the weirdest compliment you've ever gotten. But the point was to distract you for a minute. Love wins so much and destroys us. Much love dude.

Zh. said...

omg haahahaha. you are probably the most upfront reader i have, i love it.

Basnapoocho said...

Don't you dare mentioning my upfron-ness. Last night i was out at this social event. So this chick was hitting on me and i was like totally fine being hit upon like any dude. So we crossed paths i said hello and told her that i need a minute with her. She kinda beamed and said brb. Now i was driven to this event by a friend and all of a sudden he had to leave. So i was waiting for this girl and looked for her everywhere but couldn't find her. And i left. And although i have been single for like past 5 months and am not the perfect boyfriend material and i am only interested short term flings to get through winter or summers or whatever the season is. I mean i can't go to clubs only can I? And secondly a dude dancing by himself is the gravest sight ever. So yea i am like majorly flipping out. Oh and did i mention no common friends, no nothing, don't know her name, school etc so can't even find her on facebook. So such is our fate. TSK TSK. And i know what are you thinking, that damn you are so far away and you must hook up some hot lady friend with me. And it makes perfect sense since i am like a really really funky dude. So yeah. That's how upfront i am.

PS: My friends say that i will be alright tomorrow. But its hard to not to lose sleep over such a trivial opportunity. No?

Zh. said...

that's quite a story, dear sir. you do realize that there are plenty of fish in the sea, right?
p.s. why don't you email me these anecdotes? unless of course you prefer turning my blog into a personal forum, which i'm fine with as well :)

not numb yet said...

hahahhha who is this dude?!

Basnapoocho said...

hahahaha. That was fun. Writing one of my lamest story ever as a comment to a complete stranger. Sorry dude. Will write you an email. In the meantime could you just delete that comment. I mean i am a bit embarrassed about the contents, but more so because of the terrible grammar and typos.

And must i add, those swirling dervishes that turkish dance, that is dudes dancing by themselves and its a treat to watch.

Zh. said...

sorry buddy, once you're here, you're here. no deletions :D

Eirene said...

amazing.